last? last.

in these past few long-days, my life seemed much and more bewildering as I still couldn't make any decision for what kind of 'things' I should take next. I couldn't easily tell what's inside my mind and my heart to anyone, even with my mom, my dad, my sisters, for just this tiny gravel because...it takes much deliberation; could the person I want to talk to would be understand the things, with the mere thought of it could bringing up unpleasant air, everyone around me are busy already and having a lot of things in mind, I don't want to make them hardly thinking the out way, the inspiring advice, trying to unravel things, and making them worries. also, this thought of mine was not a big deal anyway. and, it's clearly; just because. 

from those many directions and paths in front of me, which one actually could easier my walk and make me happier. 

as time goes by, in the state that I keep on asking and questioning where-place-and-destination-must-to-go again, I start finding that form, a piece, piece by piece, and more pieces. once this 1/4 life of crisis sculptured another new breathtaking moment in my short lifetime.

hence, I start to let go of things, finding out about anything as much as I can, learning and trying something new, act like an ignorant person because too much keeping and giving concern and care for things will only hurt you. I can do anything that I want, with my desire, my abilities, and my long path; taking step by step ahead. 

the one that always makes me awake, feel, and aware; I'm not the only one who over much thinking and going through all these kinda-melodramatic-desperation-hardest-phase of life. for people behind life@g0jek account that always encourage many, including me, with those embolden kind-hearted words; thank you, thank you, thank you.

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